What am I looking for?

Another friend commented that he didn't know what I was looking for in my travels. I didn't ask him what he meant, but he seemed to be saying that maybe I was searching for some ideal life, some vision, some fix.
I have been thinking a lot about that comment and have come to the conclusion that the question for me is not what I am looking for but rather, "What am I looking at?"
On a personal, emotional, "another blanking growth opportunity" level, I was licking my wounds after a tough time in grad school and a blowout job in Ecuador which I quit after four months. I fled back to Guatemala, where I had developed a very intense and often difficult relationship with my Spanish teacher, Rafa. I felt strongly that it was important for me to sort out what had happened with Rafa the year before. I chose to not teach that year and to take the time to reflect on my life past, present and future.
Rafa and I went into business together, and I feel very blessed that we were able to spend a great deal of time talking out our difficulties in communication and learning how to be clear with each other. At the end of the year, it was clear that we were going in different directions, and I was ready to try my hand at teaching again.